It is officially my birthday πŸŽ‰

And I was so engrossed with my kombucha book, I totally missed the 12am mark!!

But yeay! It's my birthday!

More gifts today! πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»πŸ˜±πŸ˜±πŸ˜±

Thank you again @strawbee for the flowers.

And thanks mom for the jacket. It fits!

Pictures first. Description later

A5 Wagyu beef carpaccio

Hokkaido egg, Italian raclate cheese, white truffle more wagyu beef at the bottom.

Grilled lobster pasta

Tenderloin beef.

Apple pie.


Happy birthday 🎊🎈

I'm so glad I got my own cake this year.

Thanks @mrsergul for baking it.


"Isaac, want to take picture of the tiger?"


Want to take picture with the red koala kangaroo type animal?


Want to take picture of the elephant?


Force a smile out of him.

Because eating his favorite food and stole my watermelon juice.

Polar bear enclosure.

Totally had fun at the splash zone.

So shiok cooling off with the water.

So adventurous

Come, take picture with mummy! It's my birthday you know.

– and he obliged.

Knocked out in the taxi.

I'm glad you enjoyed yourself at the zoo spending a day with mummmy on their birthday!

Happy birthday again to me!

My in laws are the cutest!

They gifted me 2 scobys, 2 jars, 2 glass bottles and a recipe book on how to make kombucha!!!

Nothing says love like a gift of bacteria and yeast! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜†πŸ˜†πŸ˜†

Any pointers on what I should do first fellow brewers?

@wokandkadhai @spiritrip @mamaboo @poppyforrest @m3lcsnippet

Didi is in the playpen. Looking so Forlorn.

Because korkor gets pissy when didi wants to play with korkor toys too.

But I think you cannot stop didi.

Because, notice that naughty smirk on didis face.

See the smirk.


Broke out my new kombucha book.

It comes with its own warning. To read all instructions thoroughly before using and of the techniques.

πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ im liking this book already!

Ehhehe first time using my breadmaker too!

See see see

@calistallicious @butterball @doooduuu

It made bread!

Ok, baked liow!!!

Still quite soft.

Only problem is, the stirrer is in the bread. Haha. How to take it out?

Yesterday MIL birthday lunch celebration.

Smiley baby being all, smiley.

And #1 wanted to be a baby too. Asked me to carry him and such. Honestly he hardly does that.

All sour and emo. Also bag of bones now. So skinny after his cough & asthma episode.

This one so kaypoh looking around

This morning band of brothers.

I think it's dam cartoonish to see them wearing the same clothes.

My bad boys! Sorry!

Hahahaha. Morning stretch.

Back here again.

And drumroll…. guess how much weight he gained?

250gm in 2 weeks.

And 2.5cm in height too (unexpected)

Evening time.

Time to go to bed.

But first, twinning is a must with korkor.

Are we cute?

Of course la cute.

Night night everyone.

Thankful for friends who are always giving thoughtful gifts.

Thank you @Eviee

It's a beautiful purse! Got bling bling. 😍

Jujube be quick in action.

Eh, really can put a lot of things.
2 diapers M size, baby wipes (those 20pc type), packet tissues and a onesie.

My full size wallet and phone also goes inside.

I is love ah.

Cc:@calvinadawn now I know why it's so popular

Twinning in session.

Hahaha. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

This is so so good!

3/4 gone, demolished by 2 people.

Omg guys.

I died.

And gone to birthday heaven.




Dying of happiness and disbelief

How come #dayreff so so so kind and generous and thoughtful one!

Then also

Cause so touchΓ©d.


I have my first jujube!!!

@calvinadawn thank you so much!

Yes I love this very much. And yes, I don't have to carry a big and have diaper anymore!

Very spacious. Can put diapers, wet wipes, Isaac emergency meds.

Hoseh la. Very useful. πŸ’ͺ🏼πŸ’ͺ🏼πŸ’ͺ🏼 thank you very much.


I don't have one, now I'm going to strobe every single section of my face to look extras perky!

Thank you #xiaolians

Super effort wrap!!

I wonder what it is!!

Got food journal inside.

Got recipe inside!!!!



*foams at mouth*

Why so generous girls???

Thank you @doooduuu @calistallicious @butterball

*wipes tears from eyes

So useful!! I was toying with the idea of getting one!! How you all know?????

This is the closest to crying kind of happy!

Omg I'm so happy leh. Like the touched kind of happy type!!


I dunno what to say leh.

Too much liow.

And I haven even touch touch my other present.

How ah? I don't dare open!


@strawbee why!!!!

So expensive you know!!!!

Later I so heartache to use how?

It deserves a video.

Hahha ok la I haven't plugged it in and use it.

Thank you so much @strawbee

Now I will have awesome shiny hair thanks to you.


The saying is true.

The more you give, the more you receive.

I'm so grateful to everyone who took the time to think and get me a gift that's very useful and "me".

Appreciate it very much. I dunno how much more to say thank you to show I really mean it. You know I really do right.

Thank you again!!!

And, it's not even my birthday yet!!!

Not yet ah. Soon soon.

Able to stand up on his own now. 😱

Excuse his skinny limbs and big head on a small body.

And korkor made a kite which actually flew!

Telling us what he painted on the kite.

See, it flew!

Clearer pic of the kite. He says the blue bus looking thing is our "blue sports car"

Striking a pose.

It's so hot!

I really like this marina barrage place.


Fly kite, fly.

Oh, kite is dedZ.

Then they had a mini picnic indoors

Happy, but extremely sweaty and flush.

My Next loot is here!

Well, not exactly mine, but it's Isaac and Isaiahs.

Twinning outfit one.

4 pack multi colour T-shirt and shorts.


The softest bathrobe ever!!!

For before and after swim twinning!

Twinning outfit #3!

I super love this t-shirt la.

The mustache is flappable.

Skinny foil print jeans.
Cause they're rock stars in the making.

The foil print deets at the back.

So cute.

Sorry ah, everything so cute.

Pajamas time!

Superheroes, bedtime together since 2016.

Last but not least, captain America jammies just for korkor.

Cos he needs to feel special to protect didi la hor.

Bread proof and into the oven!

Today with the cold weather, it actually took slightly longer to proof.

So I cheated, I put it on top the oven when it was pre heating and immediately it proof lo. Like within 45 mins all done! The heat from the oven sure helped!

I was waiting for an hour plus and it didn't move an inch.


I though cos I reduce 5mg of sugar that it went haywire then I realize today quite cold so did some experimenting. Tadaa!

Alright, bread is baked.

Time to sleep.

This the husband right now. ☝️️

Congratulations on passing the exam that you didn't have to sit but did anyway. Hopefully it will add value to your future pursuant into the clinical world.

So happy for you though. You not stupid. Hehe.

On to the next exams in March/April 2017.

In the 10 years that I've known you, there's always an exam to sit.

It never ends!

Wake up!!!

Mummyyyy, wake up!!!

The sun is up already!!

And your smiley face reminds me of sunshine β˜€οΈ too, Isaiah.

But, it's so early. It's only 6.20am. Please let me sleep sumore.

Who needs age appropriate toys when you can play with korkors toys.

This morning, Batdude gave him 1 whole chocolate muffin that we baked yesterday.

That's essential 10gms of egg very well baked, and NO REACTION!!


Maybe his tea time give another muffin!!!

Then the whole day would be 20gm of egg.

Baked Egg Oral Challenge.

First time eating dragon fruit.

So happy able to tolerate. No reaction. πŸŽ‰

Mmmm mummy, nice.

Chocolate muffin recipe from the allergy clinic.

It calls for 2 eggs for 6 muffins, but to err, I use 1 egg for 6 muffins.

It's important to make sure that it's well baked.

Cut it open to 4 to check. Yup. Looks well bake.

Bad photo, but 1 fingertip of muffin I cut out to let Isaac try.

Gave first dose at 4pm.

Nyommm nyom nyom.

Made faces to increase mummy's anxiety.


*mummys heart pot pit pot pit

Mmmm mummy, it's nice.

Ok wait another 30 mins to give another dose.

Gulp, gave now double the amount just now.

And watch him.

I think we will end the baked egg oral challenge today. Our heart cannot take it.

But, so far so good.

Painting now.

So far so good guys. 1 hr after the first challenge.


Proofing 2nd round now.

Ok πŸ‘ŒπŸΌ double the size liow.

Can go into the oven soon, let me preheat the oven first.

Snacking on leftover sweet potatoe fries from dinner.

Ok, roti done!

At Isaacs PTM.

Spotted him on the notice board. Pics of him in concert.

His "Donald trump" concert.


Teachers think that Isaac is a very very kind boy! Kind??????

πŸ˜±πŸ˜±πŸ€”πŸ˜³ me and husbands face. Haha.

And Isaac has a lot of friends. Apparently everybody in class likes him cos he's charming and cheerful.

Say what??????? I thought he is super moody and selfish. Omg.

At least he is very well behaved outside. He still doesn't want to participate in stuff where he thinks it's silly or where there is too many ppl (hates new crowds new situation).

But kind? Wahhh awesome. Today we win a little.

Hehehee. Can't wait for my birthday cake and cupcakes!

1st semester

"Isaac is a caring boy who readily lends a helping hand to his friends. He enjoys reading books and exploring beginning rhymes of words. I am happy to see him growing more confident over the months."

2nd semester:

"Isaac is a friendly and helpful child. His cheery demeanor has made him a friend to many children in the classroom. He pays attention to details in daily work. Keep up these wonderful dispositions, Isaac!"

Mother of 2 come out and wet ah!

Must take pic!!

Chin up, keep swimming.

Even though your neck is strained from the stress manifestation.

And *drumrolls* I have an teleconference audit sumore today. *add oil to the flame*

Don't burn out please.

Couldn't sleep last night, kept falling asleep and as soon as I feel like I'm asleep, I jerk up awake. It went on until 3am!

Happy girl picture is what I hope to be.


Back to salads. I can stomach salads again.

This loaf of bread is 3/4 gone!

Quite happy. Maybe tonight make another loaf.

Husband told me this morning that Isaac demanded for the bread from the helper. He said "yaya, can you please fry the bread for me?" It's in the fridge cause no preservative ma, scared spoil.

Husband corrected him and said "you mean to toast the bread, not fry"

Isaac can answer "oh ya" sumore. So cute.

Obviously I'm not a morning person and when he told me this my face was still one with the pillow.

Happy that Isaac likes the bread.

I think everyone likes the bread. I've been stealing bits of it from Paucheeks squashy remnants. Taste so good. Must be from the molasses.

Didi really prefers korkor around.

He can just chill with korkor not making noise for almost an hour liow.

Isaac refuse to eat my bread πŸ’”

Sassy boy said "later, later, when I come back from school ok?"

Wah so happy ah

Macam yes eating it

But in reality, eating fingers only.

Macam yes tapi bukan.

But at least I know he ate a little bit of it.

And best part, no reaction!!! Celebrate πŸŽ‰

I manage to coax sassy boy to try it before he goes to school. You know what he told me?

"I like my bread crunchy one. This one too soft"

πŸ‘ŠπŸΌπŸ‘ŠπŸΌπŸ‘ŠπŸΌπŸ‘ŠπŸΌ you ah.

Then proceeds to snatch another piece and stuff it into his mouth. Means he likes la! Celaka.

Anyway I took mc cos my neck is a bitch. Too painful to turn around.

Good also la. I can intro more food to him today.

Overexcited face

This is so cute.

Fun in the park


I don't know why they face like that.

It's ridiculously cute.

First born also had some fun.


First time sitting on the swing in this park.

Nice ah?

Today skinny here turned 32 weeks?

Aihhhh so small still

Huge part why I felt like crap today was cos he felt so small when I held him this morning.

Totally patah semangat.

Didn't even want to go to work.

Don't want to be positive anymore.

But I tried.

I intro the bread and was successful. Isaac was nyoming the bread and he fed some to didi. ❀️❀️❀️❀️😘 didi also nyom the bread from korkor.

Then also intro cod fish to didi for dinner today. And he didn't react! πŸŽ‰

Lunch was yesterday's dinner of quinoa+lamb+lamb broth+ghee.

Breakfast: oats in soymilk+avocado+avo oil.
Dinner: rice+beef broth+avo oil+sweet potato+cod fish.

Trying to end positive today.

Happening now, breakfast time.

Oats soaked in soy milk overnight then cooked with 1 tsp avocado oil. 1 whole Mash banana on the side.

So far so good. He looks ok.

Towards the end of the meal, crying to be let off. Must hold my hands.

I would say he took roughly 3oz of it?

I waited about 2 hrs to see if he's ok.

Now taking a nap and I left for work.

Looks like Soy milk is ok everybody! πŸ‘ŒπŸΌπŸ‘ŒπŸΌ

Took down the recipe from @wokandkadhai and going down to cold storage to buy ingredients.

N get my lunch of salad. Cos I'm fat from stress.

@kimberzilla saw the atora. Will try pork lard first before deciding on this.

Lunch. Roast chicken and salad.

Ok la, quite clean.

For my birthday this year, I wish for a spa session and maybe a staycation.

For practical reasons. I look dam chui now and my neck is so strained and tensed. So painful even to turn left or right. I think it's stressed contributed.

It's pulling at my nape and giving me a headache too.

@calistallicious dayre favorited your post. Hehe

So excited. I've got all my bread ingredients, im going to go home n make it.

Baking project starting now.

My chia seed soaking in water.

Consulted my sifu @wokandkadhai

She say looks ok. Now letting it proof first round.

After 1 hr (9pm) it proof a little but still sticky.

I whirled it abit more in the kitchen aid with the dough hook about 10 sec then transfer it to this bread pan.

Too kan cheong, I forgot to oil the pan!

Then I damp my tea cloth abit more and cover to proof even further.

Wah Wah Wah. Hor seh liow. This is in mommamich exact words!

After 1 hour at 10pm it has almost double up nicely.

Waiting another 10-15mins to see if it proofs up abit more before putting in the oven!

So exciting.

At 10.15pm look like got rise abit more.

Ok I put in oven now. Try try and see.

Picture of bread looks dented cos I itchy hands went and poke it!

190C first to see how it goes!

Omg done!

190C 10 mins. Then I scared burnt so I 180C another 10 mins.

When it came out I knock knock sounds hard.

Abit πŸ˜³πŸ˜³πŸ˜³πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”

But when I remove it from the pan, it felt soft! 😍😍😍😍

Hopefully got potential.

Then Isaac can eat all the bread he wants!



It's soft and not hard like baguette!!

Husband approves!!!!

I'm sure Isaac would love this.

See see it's soft!!!!!

Now for oscar speech for my first successful legit bread. I would like to thank @wokandkadhai for holding my hand and guiding me through my first kneading, proofing and baking. All the hands on tip she gives me is invaluable.

Thank you thank you thank you.

Now, to test it on them babies!

I mean, tomorrow morning la. 11pm liow!

Goodnight bread. Sleep tight!

Hospital visit, Round 1.

Here for Isaacs asthma and allergic rhinitis review.

We just finish his 6 weeks level 3 asthma management.

Then his cough asthma variant has stop, but he's got a new runny nose. πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘ never ending.

2nd round review.

This time it's for Isaiah low weight gain.

My head is spinning.

I cannot deal with the low weight.

Isaiah today at 7 months and 2 weeks:

Weight: 6.3kg (pain point)
Height: 64.5cm (painful but not worrying)

Percentile: unrecordable. Drop until no where near the last line.

+ introduce grains. He needs a lot of calories to cope with his more active movements. (To make sure he's not allergic to it)
+ 1 tsp of oil mix into his food.
+ introduce soy (milk or tofu form). This is to make sure he doesn't develop allergy to it.

+ introduce dairy into his food. Recommended yogurt or high bake milk/cream. E.g. To bake rice pudding with milk.

To see dietician back in 2 weeks to reassess.

If have not put on weight, have to add formula milk into his food.

Honestly, I'm willing to give grains ago just to see if it helps with the extra calorie boost. Dietician is also ok with me taking grains off once Isaiah has put on weight and is not allergic to it.

Not willing to give dairy. Will hold on to it.

Eggs and nuts ❌

I'm also feeling very stressed because I want to introduce a lot variety of food to him. But I'm not home to watch him!

I can't just let the helper intro n let her deal with the flares or anything if it happens.

If in these 2 weeks he doesn't put on weight, im going to take the whole of December off to help him put on weight and introduce a lot more new food stuff.

I want to try giving him more variety of fruits and vege too!

Target weight to put on is 150gms in these 2 weeks.

Pls la pls la put on weight la.

So being the Kiasu mom, after the consult, I quickly went home and made some oats for him.

Added apple puree with the oats. Forgot to add avocado oil because too kan cheong.

Looked like he enjoyed it. Ate almost 2oz of it maybe a bit more.


2 hrs after oats introduction, he reacted a little to it.

Small red spots on his trunks. A little on his thighs and arm folds.

Was then in a negative and angry mode. 😑😑😑 knn oats also allergic ah?

Not sure can see clearly the red bumps.

Consulted husband on whether should intro rice for dinner.

He said ok let's intro rice cos he saw the rash on didi tummy already yesterday. So might not be the oats.

Dinner is lamb cooked in bone broth + rice cooked in bone broth to porridge consistency + 1 teaspoon of ghee!

Ate maybe almost 2 oz of it.

Then he was tired and sleepy and started looking at me with puppy dog eyes and babbled "mamamamama" – help me. So dinner ended there.

Glad no reaction to rice. But then, usually shouldn't react to rice la.

It really is a challenge for us to introduce new food to him.

We are so scared because of food allergies. Can never know when he will react to any food.

At least we know that egg and peanut is a no.

But with these allergy kids, anything can happen.

I just soaked oats with soy milk for breakfast tomorrow.

I really really hope he doesn't react to soy. If not, you know where we will be heading tomorrow.

Erghhhh my head is pounding again from the strain/stress.

Play date time!

Thanks to @Eviee for the photos because I couldn't be bothered to take photos of him.

Didn't want to play anything until after 1.5 hours of playtime

Then he started warming up and wouldn't stop


Ambulance was called today.

Our security guard was taken to the hospital.

Batdude found him on the floor. He was in pain before that. Long story actually.

Batdude got stuck in the pool toilet cos the door knob got jammed up. Fetch my helper for hammer n screw driver. He attempted to helped but the whole time he was shaking in pain. we told him to go rest. After we got Batdude out we went n check on him in the guard house.

He looked out just a little in pain so we went up to shower. Came back down to check n he was

Found on the floor 😱😱😱😱

Of course Batdude had to assess him and called the ambulance. Even then uncle security didn't want to go with the ambulance.

Ok la, suppose to be a relaxing swim turn out to be so drama!

Steak time!

Pan fry rib eye grass fed steak for didi.

Underwhelming la. He was not that interested

Still don't know how to hold it and put it into his mouth

But he kept sucking until all the juice ran out from his mouth and drip all over the chair and hands etc

Omnyomnyom so suffering isit?

Last Friday I had a short and sweet catch up with @omamee for tea!!

Thanks for coming all the way to our hotel. Sorry you couldn't stay long for tea cos it would be so jam in the evening.

So sweet ah, sumore give anggooboy's door gift to him. 😍😍😍😍

Then I don't have any photos with you to post up. Sorry ah. Heheh.

When I see this face

I want to laugh.

So chubs looking.


Tea time yesterday afternoon.

Back in Singapore!

And this Isaac is so adorable. He asked me "do you remember my name?"

Have I been away that long that he is concerned that I dont remember him.


Hanging in the gold lounge.

But why so dirty??

Isit cos only gold lounge? Haha.

Tissue everywhere and sticky couches.

I know it's busy la, but cannot be clean.

Anyway just gonna be here 15-30 mins cos #paucheeks sleeping then I wanna go shopping!!!

Not much food ah.

Super kaypoh onboard!

Sitting quietly on flight. Babbling to himself. Playing by himself.

I boob him on and off to hydrate him and calm him down a little. He kept wanting to read (grab) the neighbors newspaper.

So glad for pick-up from the airport.

Don't need to get harassed by taxi toto

Lobby!! Arghhhh.

I love everything about this hotel.

Walking towards the lift. Love it!!!

Another view. ❀️

Library cum breakfast serving place.

Walking towards my room.

I love the wall paneling, colour combo and the lights.

View when I walk in.

The bathroom!!

Didi and me approve!

This afternoon, lunch at mdm Kwan.

I'd be having expensive not worth it char kuey teow and didi will be having….

Honey dewwwww!!!!

I think he ate 1/4 of that slice and I gave up holding.

Dinner!!! Finally!

So happy when we got to check in this afternoon!

Tv console and desk.

Sofa which is large enough for a person to sit in. Maybe my sis can bunk in one of the nights.

Armchair to breastfeed in.

Love the king size bed too.

View from where we are sitting on the sofa.

Yes mummy, I am pleased with the room.

Me too didi!

View from the bed.

The lobby lounge is so me too!!

I really wanna find out who did the ID.

Going to almost πŸ’― steal the idea for my future house.

One of the sitting area leading to the star hill walk way.

Where I'm gonna have breakfast tomorrow


Hehehe dunno y the face

Lazy baby BLW.

He doesn't know how to hold the banana. So I had to hold it for him.

And he ate 3/4 of the whole banana quietly. Just nyom nyom nyom until 3/4!!!

I'm actually quite surprised he can eat so much of the banana. It's the cavendish breed.

This mornings brotherly love.

You can tell who is the most enthusiastic one and who don't really like it. πŸ™„

First time ate, and sat quietly and slept in the stroller today.

I bumped into my friend in velocity just now, so we had lunch together.

#paucheeks sat opposite her nyoming on the banana quietly.

She took his picture and told me he reminded her of a Japanese cartoon.

Haha got at? Not sure what's the name of the character though.

N she kept saying he's so cute the whole time.

Me and Paucheeks tomorrow!!!!

See you KL!!!!

Me n didi having kopi. Just sent korkor to mandarin class.

There is a MSF happening in united square.

I saw a pamphlet when I was walking around randomly.

I read every single "poster" (in English and Malay of course. I'm Tamil and mandarin illiterate).

And stood there almost in tears. So sad for the children.

Batdude, when both kids finish PSLE, we are fostering ok???

This is definitely something that makes me ☹️. I also dunno why I'm so moved by it la.

Chow mien with stir fried beef.


Yellow zoodles really look like chow mien ah.

How? Got like real thing?

Brought out korkors old toys.

Both seem to be enjoying it.

This used to be Isaacs DJ console.

So funny right?

All the music.


And sounds.

Money well spent.

Eh wait, we got this from batdudes boss as Isaacs baby gift.

Dinner is paleo gumbo.

Lamb bone broth as stock.
Fried onion, garlic, diced tomato, bell peppers. Seasoned with loads of Cajun spice.

Minced beef and minced chicken (cos no chorizo). Added in spencer gulf king prawns.

Served with cauliflower rice (dumped into the soupy stew). Stew could have been thicker, but forgot to thicken it with arrowroot flour.

Note: I don't know how I'm going back to eating farmed prawns cos this king prawns was so briney n firm. Like eating fresh sea water.

Batdude and his happy hour asahi beer. $9 for a pint. Yes please!

And cake. The hazelnut is gold in colour.

So funny la this Isaiah trying to figure out how to crawl.

Looks more like his gonna pivot and πŸƒ run off!!

So cuteeee. #bias

Wild caught Alaskan salmon
+ yellow zucchini (squash) noodles.

I just wanted to say, there is a difference in wild caught salmon and the salmon you get from cold storage, NTUC, giant etc.

The difference is so marked. Wild caught salmon is more lean, doesn't make you feel jelak and the skin is so crispy yummy.

Can you see the flesh is orangey.


Husband is having asahi beer and Guinness chocolate cake.

And I'm having none.

Ok la, I ordered matcha latte if anyone wants to know. πŸ™„πŸ™„

Lemon thyme barramundi and zucchini noodles.

Grilled pork chop and simple salad.

This guy also loved grilled pork chop. But with rice of course.

Tried giving him melon just now.

He doesn't know what to do with it yet.

So I shoved the melon into his mouth.

And he just sucked on it.

#BLW gone wrong. Haha.

But hey, at least no reaction.

Just before we slept last night, husband and I had a little chat.

πŸ’πŸ½β€β™‚οΈ I don't get it, why can't we beat him (him is the little shit named Isaac). We got whacked severely, and we turned out fine.

πŸ‘ΈπŸ» I know. Don't want to appear violent against him ma.

πŸ’πŸ½β€β™‚οΈ the only thing stopping me from hitting him was that I was afraid ppl will take picture and "stomp" me.
(We were in the mrt from orchard to novena n shit kept screaming his head off!)

πŸ‘ΈπŸ» ya imagine the headlines on stomp. Doctor from Xx

Was caught abusing his son in the mrt.

XXXX hospital should sack this irresponsible dr!!

*and we promptly burst out laughing.

Didi had his 3rd official hair cut yesterday.

Finally looking like a boy.

His hair grows very fast!

This morning I received news that my grandma passed away.

Informed my mom and she made arrangements to go back the morning itself.

I want to write about her to remember her and her passing but I realize that I do not know her. And I find that sad.

My memories of her when I was young that she is a recluse who lives in the church. We try to make a weekly visit on Saturday and if we were lucky, we will bump into her.

So how do you write an eulogy about someone who you don't know?

All my memories of her are not good. Not because she's a bad person, but because there is always a unpleasant association with her.

– her smell
– the way she lived
– her recognition (on whether she remembers I am her granddaughter or not)
– bumping into her in Klang town and seeing her looking unkempt with a plastic bag full of rubbish.

But I shall not write in detail about the unpleasant stuff.

Looking back, all her behavior might be an under lying sign of a degenerative disease, but no treatment or diagnosis was given to her.

Her lucidity is with the church and with her prayers. The nuns & father praises her for being able to recite and lead prayers in church.

Even when she was then moved into a home, when the prayer bell rings, she will be the first into the hall and start praying.

At the last few years of her life, the last time I saw her which was maybe 8-10 years ago? She does not recognize me at all.
I do not know why I've not been back to visit her, I don't know why we were never encouraged to see her. Maybe we have forgotten about her too.

I'll just remember her as my cute looking ah ma who confuses me as her daughter sometimes.

Rest In Peace ah ma.

You have return to your lord.