This boy turn 16 months yesterday.

And I never knew he could blow a whistle!!

At 16 months he can rock himself on my glider. After pushing me away of cos because he's a big boy n wants to sit on it himself.

Still throw massive tantrums but very quick so smile.

Understands a lot of things and follow instructions quite well.

Can say:
"Eeeeee dehhhtiiii (dirty)"
"Beeerd (bird)"
"Night night"

Gives out hugs and kisses quite easily.

Fav person is daddy.

Can call ah ma and ah jia. Korkor and kongkong and ah ku still can't. Must be the "k".

Can request for a selfie. And smile broadly to it.

Also can pretend emo.

And when u chide him, he gets angry and smacks the air in front of him to show his displeasure and "scolds" you back.

Also thinks he can swim in the pool. He kicks and moves his arm like a pro swimmer, but once you let go, he sinks to the bottom. He thinks he can swim by watching korkor during lessons.

He's also korkor biggest cheerleader. When korkor jumps into the pool, didi goes "yeay" so loud!!

After meals, with food smeared all over him he goes "yuck" and I go yea yuck. "Dirty" haha

Yea boy. It's yucky and dirty.

And he puffs air out of his nose and goes "hrngg!" to show that it's smelly.

When korkor goes poopoo, he walks into the bathroom and "hrngg" his korkor. What la this boy!

I had a short catch up session with my international product partner.

He said he was impressed in how I handled a few health authority interactions of Korea with a 3rd party clinical trial person and also our internal clinical science lead, safety lead and regulatory lead.

And he told me there was a job opening for the same position as an IPP in Switzerland. He asked me to apply because he said I have the genes for it!

I'm so grateful he thinks I'm able to do what he does on a day to

day basis.

Wow! International product partner is my goal job that was in my 5 years plan and he suggested I should go for it makes me even more humbled (not sure the correct words to express how I feel right now. It's a sense of validation, excitement and wonderment).

Alright! I'll apply for it.


My dreams of working in Switzerland doesn't look like it will just be a dream.



Me 1.5 months after giving birth


Me last week, 16 months after birth.

How the fuck did I gain 6~8 kg after that.

Dam angry with myself

All that triggered because I had a TC that over ran n made me pump later which made me go back home later. I made plans to go back n BBG cos someone implied that I don't make time to exercise when I've already going to the gym with personal training 3 times a week.

No, I'm not sensitive. I've already made time to work out. It's not enough. Yes I've cheated this 2 weeks that made me gain back 2 kg.

But it's frustrating with just 2 weeks of cheat meals (not every meal la) n I'm big again.

Wah I cannot!

Why isit so difficult to be a working mom.

First need to be good at work.

Then need to come back early to put kids to bed. If come back late then everyone sleeps late and someone bad mood. As it is I already have a lot of help at home with a helper cooking and cleaning n general child minding during working hrs.

But if I don't come back on time, nothing works.

And don't get me started on my milk yield. I was close to throwing my pump out my office just now. Why must I pump when milk

Yield like shit. Barely even enough for 1 feed. Yes, still pumping 3 times. This is not effective and it's not working out for me already.

I am resenting pumping. Don't ask me to pump at night etc. I already tried.

I am very frustrated la nothing is working for me.


You take care of the kids. I need to take care of myself.


Done. New indoor work out shoes helped with the morale.

I think for all FTWM it is hard to make time to take care of ourselves. Wait.

Scratch that. It is hard to TAKE time for ourselves because something else got to give. E.g.: time taken to exercise = less time to play with kids. Also when time taken to exercise leads to delay in mother eating dinner and showering. Which also leads to delay in putting kids to bed. Which leads to kids Going cranky.

Then father 😒😒😒☹ī¸â˜šī¸â˜šī¸ like this because kids cranky.

This is already mother not making dinner and

cleaning up. Also not included bathing and feeding the kids.

If time taken to exercise also means leaving work early (means at 5pm and on time la), work laptop has to be brought home to continue with work from time taken to pump. Time taken to pump is 20min X 3 = 1 hr. This does not include massaging boobs, packing milk, washing pump parts and walking to and fro to the mothers room.

Essentially, need extra 1hr 45 mins to cover normal working hrs. It's not that we don't want to do work,

it is that the time taken to pump at work has taken up abit of work time which we try to stay back n finish it up.

Yes, I agree with most of you in the same situation as me that there is not enough time. And I do not want to take more time to take care of myself then it is. Not for this 24 months because it is the WHO standard to continue breast feeding until 2 and more until mutual desired (to stop)

I cant answer for moms who don't have a helper, because I cannot do it.

I also cannot answer for moms working full time from home, cos u cannot define when is the time u r working and time u r being a mom. And wife. And helper. And chauffeur and tuition teacher etc.

I also have a question on where does the men fit into this situation.

They are the parent too. They also work. Yet the general house work (if no helper) falls on the wife.

If there is helper, child minding (boobing and cuddles and hugs) also fall on wife.

The excuse is cos men no boob and kid wants mummy? Is this true? No right?

Where is the equal partnership.

It is the mind set of the men that has to change.

In principal to say you are supportive of your wife is NOT ENOUGH. You need to do more in the family unit for the wife to feel like she is able to cope.

Not for you to feel frustrated that you can't have time for yourself to do your hobbies

Or extra work for your career development.

All those are important but the most important thing according to priority are:
1) your wife
2) your kids
3) your work
4) your hobbies

Also for wives, the most important thing are also similar:
1) your husband
2) your kids
3) your work
4) your hobbies.

Point 3 and 4 are subjected to $$$$. If family are wealthy, then point 4 will be point 3. And vice versa.

Omg, I better stop ranting liow.


Ok nvm look at pics of kids. Cos it's worth the frustrations. Because the joy they bring > the frustrations of work life balance.

Eating you char koay for tea time. Share share.

Updates from daddy cos mummy was still at work.

Thanks for the t shirt @Sunorchid !

Kids still had time to be kids yesterday. Also daddy took them to play.

Body measurements on 10 June 2017

Body measurements today, 22 July 2017.

Got lost cm's.

But I gain 1kg

FML laaaaaaaa #fliptable

No more nasi lemak 😭😭😭

What if I was a MCP, what would you have done.

Well, for one thing I certainly won't have 2 kids with you.

We will definitely argue a lot.

And when I can't take it anymore, I will make my plans to escape.


Anybody in Macpherson CC now?

Got dog show going on.

Judging in progress!

Schnauzers line up for BOB

Nah best of breed.

Didi so kaypoh pointing to all the dogs doing their thing.

Powder puffs now!

Ok not excatly. It's bischon fraise


We've got a carpet walking

Poodle now. Batdude says reminds him of Jem and the Hologram. Haha.

All the puppies lining up to the placed.

Sahhhhh cuteeee.

Eyelashes of #paucheeks

My firstborn. Extra grungy today with his crusty nose. đŸ¤ŖđŸ¤Ŗ

#mollycosmetics free advert.

Here in Rose which I love. I use it everyday now.

Lipstick 💄

Dance dance 💃đŸģ

Cute babies of Instagram feels. According to jiejie 🐱


Looking up to his korkor

Main reason why we were here!

So have the most awesome nasi lemak with awesome people.

Thanks @Sunorchid for organizing this meet up and wanting to meet us.

Truly appreciate the time spent with us.


This me, now.

I think period is coming. I'm always feeling shit 1 week before period. Like a mini mental breakdown.


But, I am totally looking forward for lunch tomorrow!!!

Can't wait!!!

People got #ootd

I got…


Sweat of the day.

Didi ki siau, rocking to errr rock songs.

If you're happy and you know it, shout "hooray"

#10randomfacts about me

Fingers feel itchy, want to do the #10randomfacts about me too.

Well, here goes, since I didn't bring my laptop back today and came home early!

1) I was an obese kid

From primary 2 until secondary 1, I was massive.

Old report card when I was 11 showed that I was already 57kg. But I wasn't always fat. I grew after being disappointed of not getting into the "gymrama" club when I was in it in primary 2. Then my eating for comfort begin.

Couldn't find pinafores that fit me.

Then I started dieting around secondary 2 after being told I need to lose weight to get bf by "well meaning" classmates.

2) I used to show dogs quite a bit from Sec 3 until ~ 20 years old

We had and still have loads of dogs. Don't ask me how many back at my parents place. They are all purebred with certificates showing lineage from U.K., Australia etc.

We had Boston terriers, bull mastiff, pugs and a beagle for a while.

Now it's mainly cavalier King Charles spaniel, long coated chihuahuas and Siberian husky. Yes, I know a thing or two about dogs and their structure and can spot a dog bred properly.

My fav is the CKCS and my love for dogs came from this particular boy

Who is the most loving and smart dog ever.

They say a female CKCS loves you, but a male CKCS falls in love with you. Their big round eyes just look at you lovingly and longingly. He was a tricolour dog and I showed him mainly and the highest award I got with him ever was Junior Best In Show! So happy ah. All my grooming, pruning and preening him came to fruition.

Then he had a daughter who was also tri colour. This one special treatment. She slept with me n I brought her out a lot of places

To hang out. Mamak la, atas cafes la. You named it, I brought her. Up until I left to Scotland to finish up my degree.

3) I wanted to be a vet

I think this was a no brainer. At that time when We had to chose our "what we want to be when we grow up" it was of cos to be a vet.

Love dogs and fascinated with husbandry of animals. Can inspect cows ass la, operate on cancerous hamster la etc. so dam fun!

I was the main "midwife" to all our dogs. I helped deliver the pups, pull them out, help tear the sac, rubbed them until they came to life when they were born cold n lifeless.

It spark my interest and I though this is it la! So fun!

But in Malaysia, there was only 1 university that offered veterinary medicine and it was in UPM and my chance of getting into public uni was next to nil la.

The other place was in uni of Sydney and wtf, the TER to vet science course was higher than for doctors la!!!

So I had to lower my ambition to chose either medicine (human) or pharmacy.

At that time I didn't want to be cliche and me Doctor all, but on hindsight it will totally suit me.

I chose pharmacy cos it was easy to get in

Even though I hated chemistry. My best subject was biology and always aced it. I constantly failed Chemistry cos dam lazy to attend class and do homework.

Half way through the course (like after 1.5 years of suffering) I think my mom said ok to change to medicine but In the end chicken out and took the easy option of continuing. I had another 2 years to finish only and if I did medicine, I need to do another 6 years.

Now regret la. Husband is supportive if I wanna do medicine now,

The cost is the main limiting factor!!!!

Nvm, I'm Asian, so can fuck my hopes and dreams in order to earn some money now.

Hor hor hor? Sumore mother of 2, no need to passion, ambition n all that jazz la.

4) I was a prefect for 5 years of high school

Not like @Brgxx kena nominated.

Nothing eventful. My main motivation to be a prefect is because the normal pinafore I couldn't fit. Prefect wear a shirt and a skirt ma with a blazer. And cover my fats.

Yup, I'm shallow like that.

Not a stellar prefect. Did my duty ok but always late one! Hahhaa.

5) I was a president of my swim club in sec 2 and sec 5

Only join swimming club because it was the easiest sport activity la!

I've been swimming since I was a little kid and know all the strokes but never join competition kind.

Also no brainer.

Another extra curricular activity was LEO club. Most I got was merit service award only la.

Not like @cikumuffin hor. One of the board of directors. And my brothers. One was a Vice President and another was president. Simi saiiiiii!!

6) Never thought I was the marrying kind

Like hello, have you seen me in secondary school?

I never hope for a bf although I had a major crush on this boy for years! Already fat n ugly and your crush never respond to you so obviously you would think you'd end up as "always the brides maid and never the bride" right?

And since then it was never about bros above hoes so I went out having fun with all my friends la.

No idea why guys wanna date me. Usually doesn't last beyond 2 weeks when I tell them "ok bye, I don't like you"

Also coupled with the fact that all my gf are super gorgeous!!! Small, skinny, fair with striking features. Smart sumore! Cos was in top science stream class. I kenut win la. So I'm your friend that is there because I'm "funny" haha.

Don't know why Batdude wanna date me and end up marrying me. He's my longest ever bf!

Also, I cannot stand ppl who r shit so I tell them off and don't waste time on them anymore. This applies to bf and friends haha.

7) I can do a split.

I'm not particularly fit, but can split and do hand stands leaning against a wall.

I'm also not particularly athletic and only saving grace is I can swim.

Cannot do dance cos not coordinate enough. I also have trouble following my PT during training if it involves a lot of steps.

8) I give birth very fast!

Like super fast!!!!!!!

#1 came within 45 minutes???
#2 arrived in less than 30 minutes.

I think if I had a 3rd baby, no need go hospital already la. Sneeze also come out liow. Ahhaha.

No pain reliever also cos too late to give!

9) Super high pain threshold

Hrmmmm this fact just came about writing fact 8). Maybe my labour super fast cos I can tahan all the contraction pain until unbearable. And when unbearable pain already, it's crowning time and baby is in the birth canal liow!

I also sat through 2 hrs of tattooing in my lower back like nothing. Just felt like vibrations on my back. Ahahha.

10) I've moved so many times in the last 10 years it's not funny

When I was 20, I went to Scotland and study and since then, I've never been home.

I've technically been living out of my suitcases since then.

Working career started with me being posted to Tawau, Sabah. I was there for 3.5 years. And every year I moved houses because I was renting. And when lease was up, I moved. 3 addresses here!

Then I moved to kota Kinabalu Sabah because asked for transfer to a more "modern" town. Was there from 2009-2011. Rented the first year and moved to a place we

Bought after being tired of moving and wanting to settle down. So that's 2 addresses.

Then someone got oppressed working there and high tailed to singapore for a training position. By then we just got married and poured our savings on the wedding and renovating of this new place.

And now, had to move again!!! I had to pack our whole lives (it's 2 persons lives now), sell the car, rent the house, ship all our barang back to peninsula Malaysia to bring to Singapore.

And we've been here

Ever since. 2011 and counting!

But hey, yes, we might be in singapore but we've moved 3 times already!!!!!

So, counting it moves I made since Scotland, it's a grand total of…… 9 times.

Let's just say I am a pro packer. Don't need packing services. I'm super organized too and label all the outer boxes well.

Eh wait just thought of more boliow juicy facts.

11) I entered a Miss Malaysia competition in 2006

I don't know what came over me! Maybe it was the fact that I lost a lot of weight in Scotland because I was depress when a guy I was dating told me I had a Coca Cola shaped body.

And I had a new bf (now husband) who thought I look hot. And also the fact that one of my close friends just enter and placed 5th in Miss Chinese international, it gave me the Dutch courage to enter!

Dafuq man, sumore I just started braces and wasn't particular at my "best". Hello metal mouth!

Long story short,

I sent in my professional shots, got selected for interview. And manage to be In last batch before they selected the semi finalist.

Hello, realistic abit la. I also know I'm not miss universe/miss world material.

So embarrassing. I wanna die.

Really it's a fit of madness one. Like, months of madness.

Ok ok another bonus fact!

12) We got married on 10.10.10

Bride pick up after gate crashing was excatly at 10.10am too. Cos hey, already getting married on 10.10.10, what's another 10.10 right?

Bahahah ok n then we live happily ever after with 2 kids with allergy.

-the end-

Wah omg my list super boring can?

Sumore like half ass no effort cos no picture all.

Sorry guys!!! And my England is so bad too. Can't be bothered to correct my spelling mistake and wrong auto correct. Grammar nazi don't kill me ok?

Oohhh another one!

13) I have a PADI license so I know how to dive!!

The only perks (ok la besides meeting my husband) of working in Sabah is learning to scuba dive.

Sabah has beautiful islands and all the diving sites are easily accessible from any port. But guess who was the square and has NO license. It's not me! It's that boring guy slaving in the hospital wards. Haha.

Eh I also climb mount Kota Kinabalu. And I will NEVER do it again. Bitch please, I'm not that athletic or outdoorsy kind of person but it was a good experience.

Happy 5th Birthday Isaac!!!

Only the father can say it so succinctly. He has a way with words.

Happy birthday my dear first born!

Hope you enjoyed the mini celebration in school. 🎉🎊🎁🎂

We are gonna take it as you were happy about it!

Yummy wheels right?

Smug look.

Isaacs Birthday “Cake”

Why you got to be so…


Hipster cute.

This is the best you can get from him.

My first baby! He's turning 5 tomorrow.

Omg. I'm a mom for 5 years liow.


Eh u don't so manja.

Someone is also excited it's going to be his birthday tomorrow!

Is this fathers love

Or not?

He wants to make sure at least his son has a birthday "cake" tomorrow.


Beep beep

Back view.

How? Got look alike or not?

More shots.



Zhenged up

Batdude thought of the concept himself.

He was thinking how to construct it, what fruit to use, what colour and tools to "carve" it. Etc.

I'm seriously very impressed. I didn't help one bit except to give "helpful" comments.

I think Batdude did a good job.

Hope it holds until tomorrow at Isaacs school "party".

And I hope Isaac really likes it too!!!!

Milk Pancake Challenge

Scotch milk pancake made yesterday.

Gave him a pinch of it. About 1 thumb size.

Nice ah didi?

Oh very pleased. Must be nice hor.

Trying to take pic of a little red spots near the mouth.

But he's having non of the pic taken.

Very happy sumore.

Ok la. Red spots kinda went away quickly.

So far eaten almost 1/4 of the pancake.

Looks ok. Like he can tolerate it.


Gave him the rest of the 1 pancake after lunch. He demolish more than half of it.

Yeay! I think ok la.

This milk pancake pass.