My mom pre recorded this and sent it to me just as the clock turn 12!


Wohoo. Presents from my director.

Look at my cake!!!

Isn’t she lovely?


See, even didi was amazed. Haha

I received flowers from the husband too!!

Totally surprised by it.

Me and my first born

Birthday song.

Listen to Isaac. Rude ah he.

My heart is so full!

I have the sweetest kids!

And the most thoughtful husband.

Went for a givenchy and moschino Warehouse sale.

All these for $99 only. Woot!!!

Actually went there to meet up with my bff! She works for prestige house which brings in all these brands and so happen there was a warehouse sale.

So #buybuybuy

Trying to be vogue.

Thing 1

And thing 2.

They love to wear matching clothes. Especially Thing 1.

Every night must be in matching pajamas.

And if didi wears a certain pattern clothes, Thing 1 will also want to wear it. Right down to matching socks.

Ok la, he loves he’s brother la.

Thing 1 rehashing his concert performance.

Note the matching pajamas tonight too.

Also, didi has a new dance move whilst I was away for 6 days.

So funny.

This will be the last time I am going to fly with this passport.

The next time will be with a brighter red passport.


Home for the next 6 days

See through bathroom.

Loving the small lounge area

Love the sheets and bed. So smooth and soft

Checking some emails before the start of back to back meetings.


We started with all the canapés available in the restaurant.

Prawn+pork skin+tamarind+shallots on sweet pineapple

Anti clockwise:
Crabmeat wafer
Prawn in egg basket
Bettlenut leaf+prawn+lemongrass etc
Scallop otah!!

Oyster salad

Crabmeat in coconut cream

Eaten with preserved fried river prawns n fresh local raw veggies

Fried fish with lemongrass n fish sauce.

Tom yum soup with huge ass river prawns.

The whole spread.

Forgot to take pic of the roasted duck red curry.

All sort of Thai desserts.

I can’t remember already but the wafer with coconut cream and golden egg strings so good.

When the Bangkok booking was finalized, I went to check out Gaggan to make reservations.

But missed the 1 month booking in advance dateline by a week.

Looked around and found Nahm as it was relatively nearby to the hotel.

Which means I need to go back to bangkok to have gaggan with the husband. Right husband???

Hug fest yesterday before I left for the airport.

Look at this didi.


Opps I just realized I haven’t change money, book pocket WiFi rental or do a rough itinerary of what I want to do in Bangkok.

I can’t wait though for this trip!!!

Food Allergy update of Isaac and Isaiah.

We are here again.

Today they gave us a tag like those amusement park entrance.

I told Isaac wooo, we r going to a theme park!!
Get your skin prick, wait around germ infested waiting room and get pick and prodded by the dr after a long wait. Hahha.

Isaac SPT.

Cows milk the most upper left super huge.

And the 8 pricks below are the tree nut panel. Cashew is still super huge.

Didi Isaiah SPT.

Everything also allergic la!

Hrmmm I also don’t know how I manage 2 screaming boys getting prick one after another.

Daddy manage to arrive half way through korkors prick.

But no worries. No worse for the wear.

Isaacs update

5 years old and so skinny!!!!

Aiyah but that’s never our concern because always in the mid range height and weight and he’s not the shortest in class.

On the allergy side:
1) milk IgE is on the upwards trend. Not safe to challenge at home.
2) egg IgE level is down going trend and for his age is safe to orally challenge in the hospital. We have an appointment in March to challenge hard boiled eggs.
3) Got him referred to child development center to rule out any behavioral issues.

I’ve mentioned this before where I think Isaac has difficulty adjusting to loud noise, new places and new things.

He will shut down and freak out if something is different.
Example: Sports Day in his school.
Same hall he does sport everyday but on the actual day, it is decorated festively with flags, has loud background music and rows of chairs for parents to watch their kids and many people around.
Refuse to step in the hall, refuse to participate. Meltdown when it gets to much if we ask

him to participate. But when he sees his teachers and friends he is ok. And before the event, we have to psycho him and tell him he can do it, your friends are there. Don’t have to win, just follow your friends to do the activity etc.

Sometimes he participates. Sometimes he don’t like and don’t want and just freeze.

Isaiah’s update.

We did not do a blood IgE test for him because the previous allergist says no need. His previous skin prick test in February shows only cows milk, peanut and egg allergy.

This round fish, peanut, cow milk and eggs is positive.

Allergist did mention that he’s food allergy is atypical than what we see in usual kids.

He developed the allergy after being consuming the allergen for more than 6 months.
He has had fish since 6 months old and develop the allergy after turning 1.

The allergist did say that that Isaiah is the type that may develop allergies to food his consume before over time.

It has something to do with Eosinophilic gut where the eosinophils are in the GI track and his gut learns to be allergic to new food.

F didis life!!!

Ok. Well. Ya.

Don’t know what to do next.

The only thing is to address the new allergy as it comes along and we hope it doesn’t become anaphylactic food allergy.


1) challenge bake egg goods of 1 egg to 12 muffins. And if pass, needs to continue to have it 2-3 times a week for 6 months.
2) he will also have hard boiled egg challenge in the hospital in March to see if he can orally tolerate cooked eggs. *fingers 🤞🏼 * – imagine the possibilities if he can eat eggs 🥚 🍳❤️❤️❤️❤️


1) today we took his blood IgE so review again in 6 months.
2) continue all his baked milk challenge. Keep eating milk baked stuff.
3) do a baked egg challenge of 1 egg to 12 muffins. Same like korkor and keep at it for 6 months if pass.

Sounds like a plan. I’m not gonna be ambitious. And follow what has been planned. And we will see from the baseline of his IgE what to do next.

So far since he develop 2 food allergies to food he previously was ok consuming, we don’t want to risk

or do anything in a rushed manner.

Are you guys reading this having a headache already?

Yea me too. Maybe it’s time to see my psychologist again hohoho.

Recording down my last pump ever.

Tomorrow will be the first day I am pump free!!

Anyone would like to take over my medela pump in style advance?

Bundle with Philips advent 3-1 steam sterilizer + freemie handsfree milk collecting cup?

My last milk bag! See la, only 50mls. Waste of my time.

Bye bye 👋🏼

You’ve served me well, my office sterilizer.

Last time being used.

Bye bye Freemie!! 👋🏼

Sorting out my breast pump stuff.

That’s a lot of shit just to pump milk.

But it’s 5 years plus of pumping and it’s expected I suppose.

Anyone wants the haakaa pump? Letting go at $10!

Yes it’s used. I used it for about 3 months.

Aye what to do with all the old bottles ah?

Lee Kong Chian Natural History Museum

Today’s make.

Didn’t contour (cos got no time for that shit). Didn’t even put foundation and concealer.

What I did was shaved my eyebrows and made it more straight. N red Lipstik by #mollycosmetics in T.L.C

We went to Lee Kong Chian Natural History Museum today! It is a museum of natural history and I was really impressed with the amount of exhibit for such a small place.

Looking into the microscope 🔬 of trees cellular level make

These dinosaurs bone are real bones. Not replica.

Underwater exhibit.

I love all the species shown.

The birds really have a vivid coloring.

So pretty colours

Isaac pretending to be a tiger too.

Listening to the explanations at the exhibits.

This cutie patotie also knows how to listen.

And when the explanations is finished, he will say “finish”! Haha

Really listening so intently.

Hahha more listening.

Crocodiles and iguanas

They were really impressive.

Can’t help it. Need to post cos too cute.

When he just woke up.


And after the visit, we decided to cut didis hair.

He cried the whole time. And once we are done, he cock stare the aunty who cut his hair.

He was so mad!!! His face so so black haha. The lady also couldn’t tahan and laughed at him too.

But gave him pooh bear stickers and he was his usual self again after that.

Chose pooh bear cos he recognized it.

Went to the park next to the mall to tire them out after the hair cut.

Wah, resting bitch face is strong in this one. Truly my son.

Having fun down the slide with korkor.


Down the rabbit hole.

Looking so matured here already.


Last night a few of my uni mates and I were talking about make up. Blending, highlights and contours.

And I started watching YouTube tutorial and stumbled upon this MUA from Indonesia.

OMFG how does she make up her client to look like doll???

So I beckside itchy this morning after dropping off Isaac to mandarin class, decided to play with what limited make up that I have.

Only manage to achieve slightly bigger eyes. Nose still so fat. Eye brows so rigid.

#dayrebeauty #totallyfail

Above picture look very severe ah.
So I blended out sumore the eyebrows.

And on igstory, I received advice on how to achieve that look!

Must have:
1) pupil enlarging coloured contact lens.
2) loads of false lashes which extend out of the end of the eyes
3) more contouring
4) more highlights with lighter colour conceal under eyes, nose bridge and forehead.
5) more practice.
6) Bake the under eye with powder for 5-10mins before blending out.

Omgosh, went and play with a bit of make up and look at the amount of brushes I’ve to wash.

As I was washing them I kept wondering why some of the brushes have with bristles, some black with light too and some solid dark brown.

Anyone knows ah?

Something new I learned since last night.


Laugh die me.

Luckily I know how to bake fer real…

Last night I passed out at 9.15pm.

I had the best sleep ever, waking up twice because didi whine a little although I didn’t boob him.


Peace out✌🏼


My two little shits.

The past week has been really trying and tiring.

I totally lost it last night.

I can’t even see them as cute.

All I feel is “tired, tired, tired”

This one woke up at 1.30am whimpering for daddy because of the thunder and lightening.

Dad raised his voice to tell him that tomorrow he can’t sleep in our room anymore on the floor but needs to sleep in his own room because he kept waking us up to sleep with him on the floor on the mattress.

Dad raised voiced effectively woke me up too. And I was trying so hard to fall asleep. And when I did it was 12 + and 1.30 got woken up again.
I told him to shut it once. He whimpered again.

I took my bolster and whack the shit out of him 3 fucking big times and shouted at him to get out of my room. NOW!

I was also irritated at the father for shouting at him just now which woke me up and then his snoring after he went back to sleep on the mattress to lay with Isaac kept me awake.


And this littlest shit kept whining and whining every half an hour n boobing him will make him fall back to sleep but not stay asleep!

Until about 2am I raised my voice at him and ask him to be quiet! He in turn as for formula milk (ask for nen nen n point to the door= milk in bottle). So I had to get up n made 150mls of isomil for him. And then he was ok to drift off to sleep holding my hand.

Ergh. But I was so annoyed at them I couldn’t fall back asleep.

Briefly contemplating quitting this family and go somewhere where nobody can find me.

All the times they play well together, it is also annoying AF when the little brother whacks the older brother. And the older one only knows how to cry and whine.


I’m tired and I need a break!

We were trying to be good parents and brought them to zoo yesterday.

It was hot and then it rain.

I thought we had a good time.

But Donald trump here is fucking annoying and trying to rule and command us on the stroller. Ask us to go here and there rudely.

He refuse to get off the stroller and let didi sit on it. I had to carry didi the whole time.

And I have muscle soreness from gym the day before and I’ve just recovered from a severe neck muscle injury.

This one scared of errrthing. So I had to carry all the time too.

I am exhausted!

Your cuteness did not save you this time!!!

I want out!!!

I hope nobody reports me for child abuse.


Oohh a lot of dayre peeps r in BKK right now or are going there soon.

Seems like a hot month to go there. Anyway, I’ll be there in 2+ weeks time.

What should I do or eat?

I’m at the age where I like very few things.

But, the few things that I like, cost a plentiful penny.

Poor husband.

These are some of the things I have liked and “saved” on instagram.

It’s okay, you can call me shallow and materialistic, but I’m old enough to know what I like and I love me!

I would say my interior decorating ideas that I like are pretty standard.

And the colors I like as you all can tell are very neutral.

I’m old, shallow and boring.

Dear god.

Turning into one of those old people liow.

But, but, but….I love it.


And today is the start of my birthday month and there as so many things I wish I could have but the aunty #kiamiam will say no, cannot buy.

Or no, not right now.

Thus, I can only admire all the beautifully made things and dream that I will have it one day.

Dream is free ma!